By: Darrelyn L. Tutt
The phone rang late one evening and I answered it.
A dearly loved individual was on the other end speaking unintelligible words in a desperate voice and clearly in a desperate plight.
For forty-five minutes I listened to strange ramblings fearful that an abrupt departure might conclude with a very bad ending.
Intoxicated with alcohol, the ability to reason, think, and speak clearly was absent.
I remained on the other end and I stayed on the line.
I heard the phone fall to the floor and we were disconnected.
Echoes of my loved one’s voice penetrated my heart and mind throughout the night and I longed for God to reach into his aching heart and heal the hurts.
I never went to sleep that night.
Tears and prayers were tightly mingled together.
As I spoke to the Lord about the matter, He shared an insightful revelation with me.
Here’s what I heard in the night:
Many times, Darrelyn, you approach my throne of grace with an inebriated tongue.
Unintelligible words pour forth from your desperate, wounded, and aching heart and speak a revelation of a disjointed heart disconnected with Me.
For forty-five minutes you ramble about trials bearing down on you, hurts that encompass, and fears that overwhelm you.
Intoxicated by the lies of the world and the deceit of Satan, your ability to reason, think, and speak clearly are absent.
I remain on the other end and I stay on the line with you.
Sometimes we are disconnected and you leave in a critical state.
Echoes of your voice penetrate My holiness and I long to fill, renew, and heal the fragments of your broken soul.
I hurt for you, identify with you, and listen to My son intercede on your behalf.
My grace is intertwined with my love for you always.
“Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love; therefore with loving kindness have I drawn thee.”
Jeremiah 31:3
I am grateful when God translates an earthly trial into a spiritual reality at a timely moment because …..
Sometimes I am fearful that my frailty will outdistance God’s mercy;
that my inebriated soul will outweigh the provision of grace needed to carry me through.
And I grow afraid.
But God doesn’t struggle with fears like I do; He conquers them.
He encompasses with a holy, pure, and undefiled love and He simply remains on the line with me.
Perhaps an individual is reading this whose mind is in an altered and intoxicated state. You’ve lost your way and question whether there’s really enough mercy to meet you at the end.
I simply remind you that God remains on the other end and He will stay on the line with you.
Hear the whisper of your heavenly Father and don't hang up.
“Like as a father pitieth His children, so the Lord pitieth them that fear Him.
For He knoweth our frame; He remembereth that we are dust.
As for man, his days are as grass, as a flower of the field so he flouresheth.
For the wind passeth over it and it is gone,
and the place thereof shall know it no more.
But the mercy of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting upon them that fear Him,
And His righteousness unto children’s children.”
Psalm 103:13-17
You are loved.