HONEST SAM

HONEST SAM

By: Darrelyn L. Tutt

Honest people are courageous.
They are more loving.
More compassionate.
More wise.
More real.
More raw.
More human.
More Christ-like.
To me.
These are the individuals God keeps surrounding me with and, like a magnet, they find their way to me and continue to confirm these realities.
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Sam was sentenced to 30 years in prison for almost beating a man to death. Half-way through his sentence and for interesting reasons, he was released and now serves "time" in other ways. He speaks candidly about the sordid details of his life which led to such a volatile act making extraordinary confessions and brilliant assessments throughout our conversation.
Sam is not an awful man.
Sam is not an evil man.
Sam is not an uneducated man.
Sam is not a young man.
Sam is a special man ... and one of the reasons that you and I enjoy our freedom.
There's so much beautiful about Sam.
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He eyes meet me curiously, half-way through, wondering if he's told me too much or gone too far.
Can I handle the affairs of his life?
Will I still be his friend?
Indeed, and the answer is yes.
I will not have him, for a second, wondering about whether I care for him. In truth, caring about Sam is ten times easier for me than caring for men who have committed far less grievious acts but remain dishonest and unchanged.
Hmmm ...
I ask a thousand questions and perceive that Sam finds relief in them and encourages me to more. In asking questions, and not condemning him, I display compassion, care, and the desire to learn. In asking intelligent and provoking questions I assert that Sam has something valuable to offer me and that his honesty is respected by me.
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Honesty is the most beautiful and rare asset a person can possess (at least to me,) and none are more courageous to me than those rare souls who dare to speak it.
Individuals willing to assume personal responsibility for problematic areas are worth a weight in gold.
My encouragement to you, dear reader, is to pursue and become like them.
Become what they learned to become in all of their brokenness and learn from them.
Honest. Humble. Broken. Beautiful. Remade.
Helpful and provoking to the rest of humanity.
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Sam has had bad experiences in the institution called the church.
 He stays far away from it.
I listen quietly to his experiences and commentary of it and I understand why he's not there.
 But he likes me ...
and he's visibly touched when I love on him, kneel beside him, and pray an earnest and energizing prayer and blessing into him. I mean every empowering word of it and then some and I know he can tell.
And curiously and mysteriously, I know that God's presence has met me in a beautiful and awesome way today.
He was Sam.
I am thankful.
And I think to myself ...
Honest words lead to honest love and honest relationship.
Without them we know very little about love at all.
Honest Sam.
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