I DREAMED A DREAM

I DREAMED A DREAM
By: Darrelyn L. Tutt

On April 11, 2009, a Scottish singer appeared as a contestant on "Britain's Got Talent."
Forty-eight years old at the time, Susan Boyle emerged on the stage with a unique and original style that made for mockery, disdain, and disapproval.
The cynicial judges and audience declared, through gesture and expression, a solidified and unified sense of rejection.
 Not only did Susan Boyle look like a born loser on stage,
She acted like one.
And the world expressed their contempt for her.
But whether the contestant makes a fool of themselves on the stage or not, the show must go on ... and it did.
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 Susan Boyle's moment arrived.
She opened up her mouth and ... silenced the world.
A magnificent and extraordinary gift manifested itself audibly through Susan's lips and she held the world spellbound as she sang "I Dreamed a Dream."
Susan's debut is a "must see" if you've never seen it, and a "must hear" if you've never heard her.
The stunned judges and the "on their feet" audience experienced a change of mind, a change of heart, and a change of eyes in a single moment.
And Susan gave the world another chance.
At least that's how I see it.
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Susan's experience on the stage wasn't anything new for her;
she'd spent a lifetime being the object of ridicule, rejection, and disdain.
She'd spent a lifetime of being poked at, joked at, and refused.
But the beautiful thing about Susan is that she kept her dreams alive.
She shut out the negative voices and jeers of men, and she just kept dreaming and singing.
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Susan Boyle is one of my inspirations, dear Reader, and in the midst of dark and difficult moments, I pull up her debut on YouTube and I watch and listen.
Something shifts in me,
Calms me,
Comforts me,
And quiets me.
Somehow Susan Boyle ... is me.
Her courage transfers itself to me and seizes me.
And tears and courage merge and mingle and her magical moment is mine.
I can feel "her" deep within:
-Her song in me.
-Her voice in me.
-Her childlike resilience drowning out man's repeated attempts to silence, shame, and demean.
And this past Saturday night I pulled up "Susan Boyle" and I let her do her "magic" in me because I felt so sad in me.
And I asked God to remember me.
Mmmm ....
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 Sunday morning, God chose to do something very beautiful for me, dear Reader.
The Pastor, half-way through the message, wanted to tie in his sermon points with a "visual" and he utilized an empowering and unforgettable YouTube to do it.
Guess what he chose?
From start to finish, the congregation was mesmerized by the 10 minute debut of Susan Boyle.  And "I Dreamed a Dream" again with her ... and I cried.
And Christ spoke to me, quieted me, and comforted me;
 and He whispered again His dreams for me.
God Almighty,
God sufficient,
The Dream-giving and the Life-giving inexhaustible God.
Ever faithful, ever graceful, ever truthful.
Ever His ... He loves me.
I am His.
And He is mine.
Together we dream.
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"I am my Beloved's, and His desire is toward me."
Song of Solomon 7:10