IT WAS MY HUSBAND

IT WAS MY HUSBAND
By: Darrelyn L. Tutt

Two years and counting, the seed of revival born through confession, began her humble ascent in my life.
At the time, the torturous effects of repentence seemed almost fruitless;
 confession seemed an unyielding, hard, hurtful taskmaster pinning us to realities of such heightened and painful consequence life didn't seem worth living and contemplation of suicide was a well-thought out consideration.
But that was then ...
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I sometimes wonder in looking back what would have come of me without my husband's steadfast love:
-It was my husband who opened up God's word to me and verified and validated the righteous effects of confession.
"By mercy and truth iniquity is purged; and by the fear of the Lord men depart from evil."
Proverbs 16:6
-It was my husband's steadfast love which secured me with tangible results of healing, growth, and victory.
"For the Lord God will help me; therefore shall I not be confounded: therefore have I set my face like a flint and I know that I shall not be ashamed. He is near that justifieth me; who will contend with me? Let us stand together; who is mine adversary? Let him come near to me. Behold, the Lord God will help me; who is he that shall condemn me? Lo, they shall all wax old as a garment; the moth shall eat them up. Who is among you that feareth the Lord, that obeyeth the voice of his servant, that walketh in darkness and hath no light? Let him trust in the name of the Lord and stay upon his God."
Isaiah 50:7-10
-It was my husband's refined love that sought to fuel me with every restorative hope and power this side of heaven.
"Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church and gave himself for it. That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word. That he might present it to Himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish. So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself."
Ephesians 5:25-28
It was my husband who stripped himself of "himself," guiding me back into the loving arms of God, and paid a debt for me I can never quite repay, who I am most grateful for.
Because of him, and as a result of my daughter's speedy discourse and action, the fostering of redemptive growth took hold of me and drew me lovingly back into community through avenues of counselors, advisors, invaluably seasoned and wise friends, and a host of new individuals too many to number.
But of the number, they all affirm with wonder, the glory and power of God.
To Him alone be praise!
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Ultimately, my friend, God's purposes prevail, and in the most extraordinary of ways, God turns the tide and does a full reversal and works through our lives.
How He does this, when He does this, and why He does this are for the purposes of His pure glory alone, in order to speak a message of His ongoing redemptive story, which we sing about repetitively on Sunday mornings.
We've become a "real and compassionate couple" living out the "real story" of our redemption.
We've activated the terms and words of redemption in "real life ways" and we've grown in our marriage and our faith as a result.
We continue to stand ... because Christ continues to save;
It's an empowering and living message that we all need to see lived out.
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We each have a "grace story" and a glory story to tell, my friend, and when the story quits becoming about "ourselves" and begins becoming about Christ, we share it in order to help others come to a saving knowledge of Jesus Christ and experience His grace, mercy, and love.
And all of these things speak to Christ and His glory,
and a sinner's "come back" story,
which we each live out.
Who knows what will come ... but God alone.
To Him be praise.
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"O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgements and His ways past finding out! For who hath known the mind of the Lord? Or who hath been His counselor? Or who hath first given unto Him and it shall be recompensed unto Him again? For of Him, and through Him, and to Him are all things; to whom be glory forever and ever.
Amen."
Romans 11:33-36