By: Darrelyn L. Tutt
    At the end of all regrets is a sea of grace ready to swallow us up with a hope we cannot understand.
    God’s mysterious ways; submerging us simultaneously in truth and grace:
    Sealing the soul with the Supernatural.
    We are not made new through our own efforts;
    But through empty souls extended.
    This is the place we receive.

    “Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost.”
    Titus 3:5

    By: Darrelyn L. Tutt

    Esther Helmke was one of God’s elect and chosen earthly saints. Displaying a rare maturity of the Christian faith in word and conduct; her life bore out a visual testimony of God’s grace through servanthood in remarkable ways. Her knowledge and love for the word of God was edifying and stimulating and her communion with God was one of deliberate, daily fervency.
    I was privileged to know Esther only for a short time, although her testimony had earned her my respect before our relationship began. With this brief overview of Esther’s life, I’d like to share an excerpt out of one of her earlier chapters:
    Esther walked into a teaching vocation upon her completion of school. Her responsible, dependable, and loving demeanor made her a “shoe-in” for such a position. One might say she was made for it, although she believed it was given her for another reason:
    Somewhere in those early years, Esther felt called into the foreign mission field. An inner war raged within her as she contemplated all she would have to give up in order to go. She prayed earnestly; the call remained the same. Ultimately, her reason won out; she was a young single woman and her singleness, alone, would translate into many obstacles and unforeseen problems. Fears and doubts assailed and prevailed until she finally said “no.”

    The ship sailed without her.
    Esther kept teaching but she now struggled with a deep gnawing in her spirit. All was not well in her soul and she knew why; she had refused God’s call on her life and was suffering the internal consequence of unrest. Attempts to justify her decisions and assurance from others proved useless. The matter was between her and the Lord and communion had been severed through disobedience. Her sensitive spirit was clearly instructed on what she needed to do; in humility and deep remorse she went before the Lord and repented of her sin. God freely forgave her and peace and communion were fully restored. She emerged with a greater spiritual fervor and a deeper spiritual maturity. She prayed for a second opportunity on the mission field, now certain that her response would be immediate and positive and she waited, even attempting to manipulate circumstances that might bridge her with foreign soil. In that time she learned that "another" had taken her place and her space had been filled. She prayed in earnest over the situation and then one morning the Lord spoke to her with clarity:
    “Esther, I called and you refused but you repented and I forgave freely and fully. The ship sailed out months ago and your work will now be here.” She submitted to God’s will and God opened up a door in the education field and used her in the public school system to touch hundreds of boys and girls with the love and Gospel of Christ.

    To think that someone as godly as “an Esther” had endured such a profound spiritual regret impressed me deeply. Perhaps “you” are reading this and it is relating to a situation in your life.
    I'd like to highlight 3 significant lessons:
    1) Disobedience can have long-term effects and, still, God will be faithful to His nature and His promise.
    “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28

    2) Some ships sail away and we need to respond obediently in our current harbor instead of lingering over an ocean of regret over past decisions. The insights learned in such seasons transpire into godly insights and lessons that need not be repeated and can be used in testimony to credit God’s faithfulness. God will use these lessons and bring them to our remembrance to guide future steps.
    “Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous; nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.” Hebrews 12:11

    3) God will fully restore the individual that humbly comes to Him in repentance.
    “And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous, and He is the propitiation for our sins.” 1 John 2:1-2a

    I have missed a few ships of my own, through disobedience and lack of surrender, and learned that God is indeed rich in mercy, grace, and lovingkindness. The truths of His righteous nature are independent of my fickle nature and He is simply good because He is simply God. Like Esther, I strain with a renewed inward intensity to move with the Spirit and respond obediently to today’s instruction, trusting that God will, in His sovereignty, orchestrate yesterday’s responses for a future glory that I cannot comprehend in my present harbor. In this acceptance I find that I live in a defined way that says, “It is well with my soul.”

    May you be strengthened and challenged to walk obediently with the Lord in whatever He calls you to.

    By: Darrelyn L. Tutt

    Helen Keller went from an untamed, wild, angry child to a bright, articulate, and highly intelligent adult. The affliction of blindness which permeated every area of her life and the lives of those around her proved nothing but destructive until a certain woman by the name of Miss Sullivan made her entrance.

    Miss Sullivan made all the difference. Her method of training and instruction was vastly different than that of Helen’s parents; she commanded an unswerving discipline over her unchaste angry pupil by requesting a new environment for Helen to learn in. This new environment consisted of a small little place outside the influence of doting parents and accommodating factors that rewarded ill behavior. This new environment was simply called the cottage.

    The cottage began as a combat zone. Helen furiously fought against her environment and her teacher; she physically and literally destroyed everything in her path, striking even Miss Sullivan, who remained adamant and consistent in her training. It paid off. Within two weeks the angry, wild child began to change and demonstrate signs of temperance and discipline. Helen Keller had begun the process of becoming a promising young woman of unlimited potential whose voice would eventually be heard around the world. 

    I note three significant growth factors in Helen’s life:
    - The affliction of blindness.
    - The teacher Miss Sullivan.
    - The uncomfortable cottage.

    Some of us have an untamed, wild, and destructive child living within. We are angry and forced to live within the confines of an affliction or trial that God has ordained and imposed upon our lives. We throw tantrums and reward ourselves with fleshly cookies and doting friends who encourage ill behavior.
    God has a different plan.
    He gives us a teacher named the Holy Spirit who has one primary objective; to conform us to His Son’s image. With this in mind, He appoints us a new environment with a certain little cottage where He begins to teach us something about ourselves, and even greater, something about Himself. He listens to furniture being strewn about and the desire for old accommodations to be afforded and He provides none of the above …. and over time we emerge from the cottage of affliction with a precious new reality:
    “Therefore if any man be in Christ he is a new creature; old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”   2 Corinthians 5:17


    “If there is a problem somewhere this is what happens. Three people will try to do something concrete to settle the issue. Ten people will give a lecture analyzing what the three are doing. One hundred people will comment or condemn the ten for their lecture. One thousand people will argue about the problem. And one person – only one – will involve himself so deeply in the true solution that he is too busy to listen to any of it.
    Which person are you?”
    -Father Longere
    Excerpt taken from Blood Brothers by Elias Chacour.

            By: Darrelyn L. Tutt

    Would you love me if you knew me,
    In this heart of wicked bent?
    Would you know me if you saw me,
    In my mind and where I went?

    Would you tolerate or keep me,
    At a distance far away?
    Would you know me, recognize me,
    Still receive me anyway?

    Many thoughts I often wonder,
    Many times I would confess;
    There is little that is lovely,
    In this heart of sinfulness.

    Simply nothing, simply needy,
    Simply coming to embrace;
    Simple mercy, simple pardon,
    Simply sweet amazing grace.

    "As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one."  Romans 3:10


    By: Darrelyn L. Tutt
    8) But Daniel purposed in his heart that he would not defile himself with the portion of the king’s meat, nor with the wine which he drank; therefore he requested of the prince of the eunuchs that he might not defile himself. 9) Now God had brought Daniel into favor and tender love with the prince of the eunuchs. 10) And the prince of the eunuchs said unto Daniel, ‘I fear the lord the king, who hath appointed your meat and your drink; for why should he see your faces worse liking than the children which are of your sort? Then shall ye make me endanger my head to the king.’ 11) Then said Daniel to Melzar whom the prince of the eunuchs had set over Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah. 12) ‘Prove thy servants, I beseech thee, ten days; and let them give us pulse to eat and water to drink. 13) Then let our countenances be looked upon before thee, and the countenances of the children that eat of the portion of the king’s meat; and as thou sees, deal with thy servants.’ 14) So he consented to them in this manner, and proved them ten days. 15) And at the end of ten days their countenances appeared fairer and fatter in flesh than all the children which did eat the portion of the king’s meat. 16) Thus Melzar took away the portion of their meat, and the wine that they should drink, and gave them pulse. 17) As for these four children, God gave them knowledge and skill in all learning and wisdom; and Daniel had understanding in all visions and dreams.    Daniel 1:8-17

    There is nothing like conviction to change the course and the destiny of an individual’s life. 
    Daniel asserted his convictions over details that many would find unnecessary and undesirable, but then again, Daniel was one of those people that never cared what “the many” thought. His life was lived in communion with the Lord and his uncompromising convictions were based and established through that communion; hence, his provoking leadership style. Throughout his life and throughout the book of Daniel we read of an individual who was sold out and committed to his relationship and service to God regardless of cost. Whether it was daily bread or daily prayer, his conduct remained unaltered by the thoughts and lifestyles of others.
    Daniel was decidedly different.
    Similarly, God has not called you to be like others but to be set apart from others and to live a free and God glorifying life.
    Steep yourself in the word, stay committed to the course, and live your life in the context of communion with Him; you'll live a life that’s decidedly different.
  • Under Construction

    By: Darrelyn L. Tutt

    Construction projects are messy even in their best state.
    Many years ago we remodeled our home with the desire to enlarge our bathroom and “open up” our dining room. Because old walls had to come down and new walls had to go up; my husband placed a heavy curtain around the area under construction in order to reduce the dust and dirt throughout the rest of the house and to keep us out of his way while he worked.
    While I occasionally took a peak behind the curtain, there wasn’t really much to see; construction projects are like that.
    The remodeling project took months to complete but once the work was done; the result was decidedly favorable and worth every messy moment in-between.
    We had more space, more light, and a lovely interior.
    Anyone who undergoes a remodeling project knows that in order to achieve a finished product; you have to deal with the mess accompanying construction.
    This side of heaven, friend, we are all “under construction” and here is the rub:
    We like finished products and finished people.
    We like clean outcomes and well-ordered lives.
    We don’t like lengthy projects or lives that require much assembly.
    Few of us care to peak behind the curtain and get involved with the restoration of sinful lives but that’s exactly what Christ has called us to do.
    We have been called to roll up our sleeves and share the good news of Jesus Christ in the midst of  sin’s chaos. We are told to get involved in the work of restoration and be the hands and feet of Jesus to messy, blotted, sin-stained lives.
    *Similarly, He has called others to roll up their sleeves and get involved in our lives.
    If this statement bothers you, you’ve perhaps forgotten your own messy state.
    We are ALL under construction this side of heaven though we may be in different stages of restoration and development; we all effectively demonstrate the disclaimer,
    “Under Construction.”
    Roll up your sleeves and get involved, today, in what God is doing “behind the curtain” of someone else’s life and then remember to take time to thank Him for those who have rolled up their sleeves to get involved in yours.
    End products are beautiful and amazing; what a wonder that God chooses, not only to restore us but to use us in the lives of others.
    Be encouraged!

    “Behold, Thou hast made my days as a handbreadth; and mine age is as nothing before Thee: verily, every man at his best state is altogether vanity. Selah.”
    Psalm 39:5
    “But we all are as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.”
    Isaiah 64:6


    By: Darrelyn L. Tutt

    Two voices spoke from single face:
    One named truth, the other grace.
    Truth was stern, direct and strong,
    Truth declared the right from wrong.

    Truth proclaimed the pure and right;
    Truth distinguished dark from light.
    Everything he spoke was true,
    Truth had perfect point of view.

    Overwhelmed by all he said,
    I sat, I wept, and bowed my head;
    And then in depths of great despair,
    Another spoke to me with care.

    The name behind the voice was grace;
    He wiped the tears upon my face,
    And gently did he speak my name,
    And comfort weary broken frame.

    “I’ve come prepared to comfort you;
    Truth has come ….. but I have too.
    For linked and joined as one we go;
    Our goal to aid and make to grow.

    Wherever truth should be declared,
    Grace shall also be prepared.
    Both are needed, both are good,
    And when combined, be as they should.

    Wise in heart and wise in way,
    Will heed and hear what both will say.”
    And Christ, Himself, the single face,
    Behind the voice of truth and grace.

    And the Word was made flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth.

    John 1:14

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